People say that happiness is a state of mind or rather a choice, which means that if you are unhappy it is you choice to be that way. I am not 100% sold of this idea. Sometimes I get really home sick and that makes me sad and unhappy as does outside influences messing with my feelings or making me feel uneasy, it’s not that I am not choosing to be happy it is that my happiness is being messed with by outside influence, that for the most part is out of my control.
I am a pretty positive person, I don’t ever really get upset, emotional or throw fits like most girls I know, and if I do I only give myself 15 minutes to be upset about something (especially if it is out of my control) and believe me in those 15 minutes I get REALLY upset, I pull out all the stops from ‘the ugly cry’, to screaming into my pillow, and jumping up and down like a 5yr old, I have even been known to kick shit. I can go full retard and be emotional for 15 minutes because after that I don’t allow it to affect me any longer (or at least I try my damnest to not let it affect me) and I think this is how for 95% of my life, I am genuinely happy.