So, I am going through a break up. A break up with my diet.
It is time. It’s just not working anymore.
It may be me, but I am not taking the blame on this one.
I have been battling with dieting ever since I lost the 50+ kgs about a year ago. I have put on 5kgs, lost 5kgs, put on 6kgs, lost 7kgs, put on 3 kgs, lost 5kgs its just this awful “up and down” without me actually getting anywhere. It is frustrating. It leads to me feeling depressed and annoyed that I am not reaching the goals I set out for myself so long ago. I have come so far, I know that but I have not gone as far as I would like to go. I feel like I climbed Mt. Everest and then 3/4 of the way to the top I was like “I am just going to set up camp here and wait this out for a while”
So I am breaking up with my diet. I need something new. Something drastic. Something that is going to slap me across the face and say, “Man the hell up Justine, you can do this, you can STILL do this”
I started trying out new diets and mixing eating plans and things other people have had success on (I am lucky that this portal has opened up a whole world of ‘former fatties’ to me who I get to talk to and share insight with whenever I want to).
I aim to lose about 15kgs in the next 3 to 4 months. It is going to be the biggest battle I have had to face yet. It is way easier to lose 50kgs than it is to lose 15. I will say that again and again.
I will be sharing all types of progress pics and exciting developments as (and hopefully when) they happen.
Here is too FINALLY looking like Heidi Klum naked and finally feeling happy about myself and my body.
Everything in my life is so good work wise, friend wise, I just want to get to a point body wise where Justine likes being Justine.
If that ever happens. The self loathing is strong with this one. I blame High School.